So apparently we have been singing "Ring Around the Rosie" all wrong! I've been singing "ashes ashes we all fall down." According to Malachi it's "a@#less a@#less" we all fall down. Pretty appropriate if you ask me considering the boy has no butt!!
Oh, and tonight as I was *ahem* cleaning him up in the bathroom, he said "Look Mom, 2 popcorns!" and then he flushed! I guess I should be happy he can count!!!
Sorry for the lack of creativity! It eludes me at the moment...you'll just have to forgive me!!! ha
This weekend was full, but in a very relaxing, very re-charging way! Friday didn't start out so great as our sweet baby boy was diagnosed with and got a BIG shot of steroids to treat Croup! Can I just say, YUCK? Croup is what caused him to get so sick 2 years ago so I'm not a big fan of the virus itself! When he woke up Thursday night around 11:30 and coughed, I knew IMMEDIATELY what the cough was and what it meant. So, Daddy stayed home Friday and after we took him to the Dr., they both went home and rested! (Well deserved for Daddy...he's been pretty busy in the last week!)
Saturday morning, Malachi's cough was gone and he seemed to be feeling well so we decided that for ALL of our sakes, we needed to get out of the house for a little while. We headed to breakfast with Lolli and Pop before we spent some time at the "scratch and spit" stores, Lowe's and Home Depot looking around!! Then, we came home, took a nap, cleaned house (kinda) and got ready for Aunt Donna and Uncle Steve to come over. They're some of Malachi's favorite people - especially Uncle Steve! Although, we continuously laugh that we're not sure who's more tired when they leave, Malachi or Uncle Steve!!! hahaha
Sunday, since Malachi had been sick, we decided to keep him home from church and we got busy around the house! By 10:00 a.m. the dishes were done, laundry was separated and going and several loads had been completed, closets were cleaned out and Malachi's room looked like this...
We were planning on transitioning to a big boy bed this weekend, but with him being sick, we didn't want to rock the boat! He's not climbing out of it or anything, but it's time! (insert sad face here) I cannot believe my little boy will be 2.5 years old tomorrow!!! So, we're going to HOPEFULLY go to a big boy bed NEXT weekend!!! I'll be sure and update on how that goes!! As a friend pointed out on facebook, though, at least it was his room and not the living room that looked like that. So true...however, THIS is what the living room looked like approximately an hour later!!
Yes!! We were decorating for Christmas. Now, before I hear all the moans and groans that it's not even Thanksgiving yet...let me explain. Not only are we responsible for decorating our own house, but we also help my parents decorate their daycare AND their house. So, it's necessity that we decorate early - or it might be too late by the time we DO get around to our own house! Just like last year, we went with the lime green, white, silver and red motif and I LOVE it just as much as I did last year!!! Sorry the picture's a little dark...the lights were off and all of these pictures were taken with my phone!
This is our tree topper this year! My mom bought it for me and I LOVE how whimsical it makes the tree feel!!!
This little cutie likes it too!!!
All we have left to do for our house is hang our giant stocking on our front door, decorate our light pole outside and hang the lights outside!!! Hopefully that'll be done by this weekend!!
As far as other things are concerned - here's where we stand. I had my blood drawn last Wednesday and my "levels" dropped significantly from last Monday's levels. This (I guess) indicates that my pregnancy was NOT ectopic which (again, I guess) is a good thing. I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything! We are headed back to the doctor this Wednesday to do a final check of my levels and then meet with our fabulous doctor to discuss. What we're going to discuss, I'm really not sure. I want to know why they thought it was ectopic to begin with...I want to know where we go from here and when our 3 months starts...I want to know what we do when we do get pregnant again - Will we be more cautious when I do get pregnant again? Will we do more close monitoring when I do get pregnant again? What should I do for the next 3 months to get my body as ready for another baby as possible? Do I HAVE to wait 3 months? (I know the answer to this...but I still want to ask!)
Emotionally and spiritually we're doing very well. We've had lots of time to cry, snuggle, talk and joke over the last week and that has done WONDERS for our marriage! Truly - I've never felt closer to my husband than I do at this very moment! Thomas has been my rock this last week and continues to lead me through this. I have a husband that lots of women would kill for - and that fact is not lost on me! Some of the hardest things we've had to do is to try to choke back tears when Malachi comes up and points to my belly, laughing and saying it's a boy. (It's a game we played...he would say it was a boy and I would tickle him and tell him it was a girl!) Throwing away the baby's pumpkin from a couple posts back and then telling Malachi we had to throw it away when he asked where it was...Packing up his "big brother" T-Shirt because we just can't bear to look at it right now. These are all things we've had to just push our way through this week! On the other hand, we've never questioned why...I had a few angry moments last Wednesday after my blood draw, but, again, Thomas comforted me (on facebook, nonetheless) and brought me back to reality pretty quickly!!! We're just ready to put this behind us, never forgetting, but moving forward with the next stage in our life together!!! I've been listening to my Pandora "Selah" station a LOT lately and have been comforted by many of the songs the Lord has chosen to play for my sake! All in all, life is good, God is better and we're thankful for what we DO have and who we DO get to hold and cuddle each night!!!
I've never understood why people wait 12 weeks into their pregnancy to announce to the world that the Lord has blessed them! Sure, I know the whole superstition about miscarriage during the first 12 weeks, but that's never been something I've really, fully, grasped. Now, I do.
Beginning on Friday, I began to experience light "complications" which continually got worse and worse throughout the weekend. This morning, Thomas and I were at Dr. Hopkins' office from about 9:30 until 12:00 going through scans and tests and exams to confirm what our hearts already knew. The Lord decided to bring another of our precious babies back into His beautiful kingdom. We were back at 1:30 for more bloodwork and talked to the nurse soon thereafter since the Dr. was off bringing another baby into the world! Here's the rundown -
Yes, we had a miscarriage. However, it is suspected that I had an ectopic pregnancy, as opposed to a "normal" miscarriage. (Is there such a thing?) Beginning on Thursday I started having HORRIBLE back pains which radiated around my midsection and down into my leg. After a quick trip to the Dr., the nurse on call did a simple test to check for infections and when it came back negative, it was determined that it was just sciatic nerve (or something like that) pain. I went straight to the chiropractor where she worked on me for a while and really did make me feel better. (AFTER she stopped working on me...during HURT!) Then, everything started Friday night. I can't help but think that it's all somehow related. Not the miscarriage and the chiropractor, but the miscarriage and the back pain. We're facing blood draws again on Wednesday followed by weekly blood draws thereafter to determine if my hormone levels are dropping like they should be. If not, we may be faced with surgery to clear out any remaining tissue.
Now, after the physical pain of yesterday when it got REALLY bad, and after the emotional AND physical pain of today, we're beginning to heal. Thomas has been incredible during this time and, honestly, our marriage is already strengthened SO MUCH by going through this! We both know there is a reason that the Lord is allowing this to happen; and, even though we don't know what that reason is yet, we're at peace. Yes, we have our ups and downs, and probably will for some time, but all-in-all, we're doing okay! We'll be able to start trying to get pregnant in 3-4 months assuming that surgery isn't in the Lord's plan!
One of the worst parts of this whole experience? We saw TWO young girls there who had multiple children today. When I say young, I mean in their teens. And no, I'm not condemning them, nor judging them. However, it sure did STINK to be reeling from the pain of a miscarriage and watching a 15 or 16 year old girl walk in with her mother, her 1 year old and her two newborn twins. The funny thing was - I told Thomas I wanted to be angry, but who would we be angry at? There is no benefit to being angry at those girls, as I am no more deserving of God's blessings than they are! Since when did I become all high and mighty and above anyone else? The Lord doesn't look on sins as we do. A sin, is a sin, is a sin. And, until I go through a day, or heck, even an hour without having a bad thought or saying something I shouldn't have, I'm not any better than anyone else. I'm only a sinner, saved through God's amazing grace, trying to be a testimony, but failing miserably more times than I care to admit!